cover this shit
memories... memories... sweet and bitter, tears and laughter. im trying to grab hold on them again, never wanting it to slip away and disappear from my heart. im trying very hard to. wheneva i try to think of the every corner of pcps, it just seems to fade away, replaced by zhss, growing larger, brighter, clearer, taking more control of my mind. no, no, no!! go away... pcps.. pcps... ZHSS... pcps...ZHSS... arghh! should i let go? i dun wanna. its one of my comforts from the chaos from my daily life in zhss, in 1e6... sku life without janelle... ... pcp..ZHSS.
relmo's fingerprints monkey-ing around 4:40 AM
memories r fading away... and i dun mind letting them go... issit worth hanging onto? i always felt its a yes... till now... was it just a memory 'stop', or a memory 'interchange'? it all just seemed like a dream now, and im glad to wake up from it. out from my memories and back to reality. when i try to picture pcps, zhss seems to just pop into my brain and stop the memories from overwhelming me. i forced pcps to brighten up, but now, i think its just wasting my efforts... my hopes r gone... i changed my point of view, and starts to welcome the present situation. the new friends i made, the environment im in... gd bye memories, be gone for good. i dun wanna think bout u animore. it was all fake. everything was.
relmo's fingerprints monkey-ing around 9:20 PM
ppl change. yea... they do. always. and then every slight empression they gave me changed. or rather, worsen. yea, im sb with a broken heart, but who broke it? them. i thot they were great. but they just turned out to be the same as the others. of coz im no better than them, so wad can i expect from them when i cant even expect tt attitude from myself?? oh siianz. i hate this. gd nite.
relmo's fingerprints monkey-ing around 5:53 AM
yay, yay, yay, yay! hcl lesson thingy turned out great! thanks to my ma, my com, my team, God! yipee! well aniwae i still feel weird in tt sku... missing pcps ppl lots! wawawa... im soo emotional now... -_-"
relmo's fingerprints monkey-ing around 5:06 AM
im so dead beat. as in mentally, as in quite much of my brain cells were killed... arghh... bball rawks but hey, it just seem to clash with my original mental timetable... kaes wadeva it is, im kinda isolated mentally in my own world, lost in the sea of negative and pessimistic thoughts tt i always processes... well aniwae my life in sec. school still not QuItE bad larrs... hmmmz just tt my... my... oh nvm bout my classmates... talked about them in the earlier few posts le... no way im gonna make myself kill more brain cells thinking about my classmates... tts about it, diary, i needta sleep... maybe for the sake of my poor dead brain cells... lolx... cheers, rebecca aka(olive oyl 2...)
relmo's fingerprints monkey-ing around 7:06 AM
oh no! oh no! oh no! oh no! oh no! oh no!! im freaking out... 1stly the bball training... its always ending like only bout at 7 plus pm and dunno y i so sway... always so mucha hw!!!! ytd i was doing my hw(wanted to watch tv..=) ) then i almost slept there... gosh i felt very sleepy... todae i almost slpt during history lesson! luckily there's oni 1 period of history...=)... ... *yawnz*... now we got to do this lesson thingy for hcl... means we teach for one ke4 wen1... 3 ppl in one grp larrs(2 gurls1 boi)... im so called the more enthu one hu bothers to try find info on how to do this assignment... arghh... im freaking out! fine i always am... so more i so sotong... i just cant BO CHAP! and oh ya... i think i gotta stay at home and lock myself up to study for a few tests tts on next thursdae! sku reopens on wednesdae, but i cant study on tt night! got bball training...(usually i'll kinda slack till the dae before then just flip thru!=P) im so dead... kill me somebody! kill me!! im turning insane!
relmo's fingerprints monkey-ing around 1:12 AM
hv u ever thot tt ppl around u hv two kinds of personality? two kinds of character? and the oe they usually show is the 'fake'one... the deceiving one? maybe im just tooooooo sensitive. but heys, i tend to suspect every single soul tt they're all deceiving. masked identities... nt yet exposed. but they soon will. one by one. everyone. i changed. changed into a loner. changed into someone hu locks her own sorrows and feelings inside. im not gonna tell anyone. i dun believe anyone anymore. NEVER.
relmo's fingerprints monkey-ing around 8:45 PM